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growing up I was raised like I was in the military for many years. My dad had a extreme temper and could blow up over anything in a seconds notice. He served in the Army for 20 years he served in the Korean war for two tours and Germany for two years later I think he suffered from ptsd . But I had no clue what ptsd was at that time.


He had many fights with my mom it was very rough to see my mom have to deal with it. I still have nightmares of seeing her blood on the walls of our home. I never understood why she stayed with him during theses insane times!!!

My brother was my rock during theses crazy fights. I would pray and pray for someone to stop by or many times for my dad to die!! I don't like to admit that and it seems crazy for someone to pray for someone to die but I didn't know what else to do.


My ever changing world Next time!!!!  

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